I have written, deleted and restarted these paragraphs four times already and am no closer to fully expressing in words the few rather simple things I feel compelled to express. I think perhaps in this version I will remain simplistic. Keep in mind readers who know me, this is pretty general and applies to many situations and people. Something here strike a chord with you? Let's talk about it.
I have been busier with work than ever before, at any other job. It has been a positive experience overall, despite the stress. During this time I have had little opportunity to anything but sleep or think about upcoming work. I know that in the end it will all work out for my company, my career and my bank account, but in the meantime it has been rather overwhelming.
Not to mention the fact I have been trying to make some positive changes in my life over the course of the past six months. An unfortunate result of all this has been what I perceive to be a disenfranchisement from many of my closest friends. I feel like I have been faulted for not being more available or proactive in trying to make time to hang out. Wonderful news from someone I care deeply for had to be discovered on a website, never having been telephoned. Another makes me feel like the bad guy when he is consistently anti-social and rude even when I simply drop in to say hello.
I know I am trying my best to become a better person. I am paying my debts quickly, my family and I are getting along better than ever and I truly happy for the most part. I would like continue making things better for myself while knowing my friends are there to support me. I suppose though that may just be a function of everyone having their own lives and moving on.
That all said my telephone always works even if you may get the voicemail. I am pretty good about returning messages, but sometimes I forget. E-Mail is my communication staple, so that is always a good call. I am here, imperfect, but still the person you have known for years.